My Human Side

I'm a man of many acts, i do what's on my mind,
i strategize my life on things mind over matter,
maybe today you can see me smiling with you,
but maybe tomorrow I was beaten down by these evils

I'm a man of diverse variations, i view directly to my soul
i look at the mirror, i got whispers from my conscience,
because my heart is still linked to my human flesh,
i picture this life as a cycle of karma, truth & consequences.

I'm not perfect, will never be a role model, i had many flaws
i bow to saints, because i can't be them, so i look up to them
at the end of the day, I'm still me, striving for improvement
dodging sins, measuring good & bad, grateful to God

I'm having conflicts on my image, rationally confused
today you see me with my sense of humor politely
the next day i had this sentiments that makes me a lunatic.
I had this strengths & weaknesses battling around.

I believe in different philosophies, I embrace morality,
I want to be successful, despite aggravations and failures.
I use to fall from a pit, so i can climb back persistently.
I'm trapped against a brick wall, so i can jump on the other side.

I want to shine from different things, humble more myself,
I'm sensitive to harsh things, because I might spit on society.
I can cuss raw & uncut for the things that needs to wake up
but I swear to God, I'm never a sell out, I'm relevantly real.

I dream a lot, and i had never ever give up this dreams,
being a better person, feed my children, help more people,
to put courage on their fears, hopes on their miserable state
one more thing, I wanna be alive. for more years, please.

-AIAN

i had all this things on my mind which are all crumbled and scattered, that even this work couldn't find a specific imagery of what i do want for you to picture out. but one things for sure, all the words comes from my heart and soul, it's a vivid representation of whom you haven't met yet, even my family, only few people have known me this way. this is pure honesty, no added sugar, all pure me.