Re-discovering Dignity
 
It began with a poem, so I find it ironic that its how our love ends.
For so many years, words have been my closest friends.
Their flowetry teaches and guides me in what I should do,
So I turn to them once more to be guided from you.
 
I told you I missed you and that I loved you as well,
But I don't really think you were prepared for this wealth.
Love is not perfect. We both have mistakes that we've made.
So who are you to reject the repentance I gave?
 
We both felt the hurt, but you cared only for self.
You never once acknowledged the hand I was dealt.
I humbled myself and crawled on knees to you
Begging and promising before God I'd be true.
 
I suffered my dignity and lost my identity too.
Rejected the first time, I returned for round two.
How many times did you turn me away?
But you were mad that the game made me too tired to play.
 
Finally my heart had occasion to see…
I had a spiritual and emotional epiphany.
I looked deep into the eyes of a soul ever so jaded.
The glowing memories of love now seem forsaken and faded.
So I will take a step back to see what this is about.
And will give you some time to just sit there and pout.
 
After all that rejection, you should be the first to approach,
Without hesitance or fear that you will encroach.
So I sit here and wait these days just for you.
Waiting to see what it is you will do. All this time, I am like a caged bird.
And as days pass I receive nary a word.
 
I resign myself to the fact that it was all just a game,
Even if you’re still giving me all the blame.
I'll accept it once more because that's what I do.
And on some small level, maybe it is true.
 
But I won't continue to torture myself for what I did
I must be a good example for my little kid.
I want her to see that she is worthy, independent, and free.
And she should never get down before a man on her knees.
So, I'll do all the things that I want her to do
And to myself I will love and always be true.
I hope that from all of the qualities she remembers of me
She’ll remember most that I carried myself with respect and dignity.