Sleepless Bliss

Lying alone in this massive bed

there’s room enough for more than one head.

Fighting my eyelids I drift off to sleep,

fearing the dreams when I go in too deep.

They all start the same, all happy and glad,

then swiftly deteriorate into something so bad.

From here the nightmares will slowly creep.

So real and painful that I actually weep.

How did you go from my lifelong friend,

to causing me all of this pain in the end?

You once said you loved me just as I am.

But that was a lie, and a total sham.

When love was the feeling you had for me

being together was what set me free.

With you loving me I didn’t play a role.

I had found the love that made me whole.

But now I’m tortured by you every night.

In my dreams I try, but I never get it right.

No matter what I do it’s never enough.

You treat me so badly, so mean, so rough.

There in my dreams never a kind word is spoken.

You hate me, and harm me, til my spirit is broken.

Then when I lose it, and I start to cry

you scream at me,  “I wish you would just die!

Go join your mother, Nana and brother,

then I’ll be free to be with another.”